Those Who Miss Deeply Never Lose Hope

 This is the fact in my life ı miss someone and hope they miss me back too. It is really painful feeling to miss someone. And ı already know you miss someone too. Its not a plan to miss someone I never thought ı will miss someone in future because ı never expected to miss but that feeling always with us isn't it? It is one of the hard truth and that's why sometimes ı want to lose my memory and hope longing will be permanently gone. And ım sure while reading me you say it is impossible to forget somebody fully and I'm agree with you, even ı cant forget the days which we spent together. Even ı miss my former state who made me become how ı was living and thinking as before. All stupid and funny things, mistakes, regret, excitement, love, rejection those all good days. And without them ı became someone even ım not familiar with and ım trying to seem okay, fine from outside because there is still someone who care about me fortunetely. If it is the situation you are in as me you have really hard task try not to lose yourself if you lost an important part of yourself because the life will show you more difficult exams. For example, ı started convincing myself that ı will be happier in my future life regardless lack of them and be grateful for my life with thinking about other difficult, unbearable lifes but all these thoughts don't help me to find where and whom I belong.

 I'm all the time fighting with myself what is the reason ı miss someone because sometimes ı miss people whom ı fight all the time while together or if ı hated or became irritated and admired. Somehow many times ı find myself thinking maybe its really good feeling to miss someone. For the last sentence please don't swear at me. Because when ı miss my family ı imagine them near to me and it is start being a sweet pain in my heart. I remember the best moments which we spent and start crying but ı can't disclaim it gives me a smile on my face. 

 Your friends can move to other cities or countries, you can break up with your darling, someone can die. pass on who you love deeply, or the worst thing you can be together all the time closely but you cant keep your ego aside and maybe you just miss someone because of their interpretation. And you start thinking in all those terrible situations what to do.. what to do.. because that feeling all the time out of control. Firstly don't allow somebody to judge your feeling and don't wait them to understand you fully but ı never ever suggest to push away our deep longing. of course, there are million of sites like how to forget in 5 ways or 10 ways and many stupid things something like that how can you forget your ex-love in 5 steps for example doing sport or listening to music because when I am sad ı listen to sad music for being more sad and emotional. I all the time follow my feelings but many times unfortunately ı forget to allow my brain to be with me.

 Sometimes when my madly missing reappear ı just close my eyes and wish them to feel my love, goodness, friendship, family bond and sense of belonging wherever they are. We human are f*cking complicated, just don't like to romanticize too much because there are many peoples who are willing to treat us like sh*t. Our missing is completely understandable but some of us menage it perfectly ı cant understand those one. If you miss the person when you feel alone never mind on the other hand if you miss during your best moments yes this is the true reason. 

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wishing all best
Hazal Boçnak